JUST SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS..

So now that the new year has begun it has already started out somewhat stressful.. I have come to realize i have no idea what i want to do with my life. I am going to school spending all this money and taking these classes i will probably never use. I love kids but don't want to teach.. I love science but it some what grosses me out.. I hate history.. I like math but i am not good enough at it to do it for a career.. i am just in a place where i don't know what to do. Tyler has the opportunity to finally move out and be on his own but i don't know if it is a good idea right now.. although it will be nice to know that he does have a place to live when we get married and not with his parents or with my mom, i am worried about the money situation.. i know we can afford it but i always wonder what if.. the problem is i worry to much. Baseball is about to start and i can't wait.. it is by far my favorite sport (it is the only sport i completely understand). I love the life of a coach's wife/girlfriend. I hate not getting to see Tyler as much but i learned very fast to live with it. I have also recently learned that i can not live without Tyler. He is the only person who makes me feel secure and complete. He is so amazing. He spoils me and loves every second of it. He is the only man i have ever loved like this. He is also the only man that loves me like my daddy loved me. I love the fact that he is great with kids. There is no question that he is going to be a great father to our children. He has the kindest heart of any man i know. No other man will ever compare to him. I have been thinking about Sissy a lot here lately. Every time i turn around i want to call her and ask her what to do, she has always guided me in the right direction. She is now married and is focused on her amazing husband and i have never needed her more. I hate the fact that they live so far away from me. I can't wait until Micah graduates so they can move closer to me. I have no doubt i will never live to far from them again. Micah is the perfect brother-in-law, there is not a man in this world that i would want my sister with other than Micah. I love the fact that he and Tyler have been friends forever, it still gives sissy and i the chance to spend time together and not worry about the boys. We can send the boys off and know that they are probably doing the craziest thing ever but they are having fun doing it. Sissy amazes me everyday, she makes me look at everything in a different perspective. She is the reason that i think before i act. She has the best advice ever. Sometimes i wish she wouldn't give me good advice because it makes me want to ask her about everything first. I know i have to live and learn but i am the baby and everyone has always protected me. When i was little i used to wish i was an only child, i hated sissy, she was always beating me up, telling me i was a brat (i really was)and never letting me go anywhere with her, now that i am grown and she is my best friend i look back and laugh thinking about us as young children. Sissy is my best friend and the only person who completely understands me. Now that i have rambled on about a whole bunch of random things i feel like i have some what of a clear mind. I love you guys and hope everyone has a GREAT week.