Daddy..

So it has taken me a little while to be able to write this blog.. March 24th was the 2 year mark for my daddy.. everyone says it gets easier as time goes by.. wow was everyone WRONG.. this year was so hard for me.. why i am not sure but it was worse than last year.. i pray they continue to get worse.. i miss my daddy so much.. i know he watches over us daily but it is not like having him here to hug.. i miss those daddy hugs.. there is nothing in the world like a daddy's love.. i am so blessed to have had a daddy that loved sissy and i so much.. he was the best daddy in the world.. i never once remember him or mommy missing any kind of event that sissy or i was in.. i pray that i am as good of a parent as they both are.. i hate the fact that my babies will not have my daddy to grow up around.. i know he would have been the perfect granddaddy.. i love my memories i have of my daddy and have just recently started writing them all down so i will never forget any of them..

Wedding Planning..

So i have been very busy and haven't updated in a while.. This wedding planning is hard stuff.. or it could just be that i am so picky..but it is my day..right?? i am enjoying it very much though..i will only have one chance to do it so i will make the best of it.. We are getting married at United First Methodist Church in Anniston.. wow what a BEAUTIFUL church.. my dream was to always get married in an old cathedral.. well this is the closest i could come.. i am absolutely in love with this church.. i knew right when i walked in the doors it would be where i got married.. we are haveing our reception at the Anniston Meeting Center.. i originally didn't want to have it there because it is just a big ugly room.. but after doing a lot of brain storming i decided to call and see if it was available.. luckily it was.. at a great price.. yes there will have to be a lot of decorating done for it to look the way i want it to look but i have been blessed with so many very talented people in my life..i know my day will be perfect.. i am getting very anxious now that it is less than six months away.. i am ready for it to be here but don't want it to ever end..hopefully i will have more time later to update some more.. now off to more planning and brain storming!!

Engagement Photos..

So we decided to do engagement pictures!! We chose to ask Claire Caballero to do our pictures and oh boy am i glad we did.. she is a GREAT photographer.. I absolutely LOVE her.. i was worried about Tyler not wanting to do them and especially after i told him we were going to Birmingham to have them taken and i left out the part about it taking 4 hours.. well it turns out he had a GREAT time.. Claire was cutting up with him and it made it sooo much better.. I can not wait for her to do our wedding pictures.. We had them taken at Sloss Furnace, some random building that had a huge wall of graffiti, and Botanical Gardens.. They are the best pictures.. i love them and had the hardest time picking out pictures to order.. i can't wait to get them back..Thank You Claire!!!

WE'RE ENGAGED..

So Tyler and I went to Disney World with his sister and her two adoreable kids.. we had the time of our life.. it was so much fun to see the looks on the kids faces when they saw things that they liked.. but even better than that Tyler poped the big question!! He is the sweetest person in the world.. he had wanted to do it at the castle during the fire works on tuesday night.. so we went to the magic kingdom that night and it was raining.. they had not had rain in like 2 months and we get there and of coarse it begins to rain.. that night it was just a big huge mess.. so he waited until wednesday night and was going to do it at the castle but there were so many people there you could hardly move.. so we decided to try to make it back to our resort before the finally of the fireworks.. but we didn't.. so when we got back we had not eaten so erica, chad, and the kids went up to there room and tyler and i was going to go to the cafe to get something but tyler didn't want to eat right then so we went and sat on the beach and just looked at the water for awhile and then he was so sweet and asked me right there under the moonlight.. he is sooooo very sweet.. i love my ring it is sooo perfect.. so that is how all of it happened.. it didn't happen the way he wanted it to but it was perfect and i am the happiest girl in the world.. i can't wait to start planning.. the big day is August 21, 2010!!!

FUN iN THE SNOW..

This is Maggie's first time seeing snow.. she is so funny she walks so carefully in it.. we had to buy her a sweater to wear because i was afraid she would get to cold.. she doesn't have very much hair. We love experiencing new things with her. She is so much like a baby. We love her so much!

JUST SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS..

So now that the new year has begun it has already started out somewhat stressful.. I have come to realize i have no idea what i want to do with my life. I am going to school spending all this money and taking these classes i will probably never use. I love kids but don't want to teach.. I love science but it some what grosses me out.. I hate history.. I like math but i am not good enough at it to do it for a career.. i am just in a place where i don't know what to do. Tyler has the opportunity to finally move out and be on his own but i don't know if it is a good idea right now.. although it will be nice to know that he does have a place to live when we get married and not with his parents or with my mom, i am worried about the money situation.. i know we can afford it but i always wonder what if.. the problem is i worry to much. Baseball is about to start and i can't wait.. it is by far my favorite sport (it is the only sport i completely understand). I love the life of a coach's wife/girlfriend. I hate not getting to see Tyler as much but i learned very fast to live with it. I have also recently learned that i can not live without Tyler. He is the only person who makes me feel secure and complete. He is so amazing. He spoils me and loves every second of it. He is the only man i have ever loved like this. He is also the only man that loves me like my daddy loved me. I love the fact that he is great with kids. There is no question that he is going to be a great father to our children. He has the kindest heart of any man i know. No other man will ever compare to him. I have been thinking about Sissy a lot here lately. Every time i turn around i want to call her and ask her what to do, she has always guided me in the right direction. She is now married and is focused on her amazing husband and i have never needed her more. I hate the fact that they live so far away from me. I can't wait until Micah graduates so they can move closer to me. I have no doubt i will never live to far from them again. Micah is the perfect brother-in-law, there is not a man in this world that i would want my sister with other than Micah. I love the fact that he and Tyler have been friends forever, it still gives sissy and i the chance to spend time together and not worry about the boys. We can send the boys off and know that they are probably doing the craziest thing ever but they are having fun doing it. Sissy amazes me everyday, she makes me look at everything in a different perspective. She is the reason that i think before i act. She has the best advice ever. Sometimes i wish she wouldn't give me good advice because it makes me want to ask her about everything first. I know i have to live and learn but i am the baby and everyone has always protected me. When i was little i used to wish i was an only child, i hated sissy, she was always beating me up, telling me i was a brat (i really was)and never letting me go anywhere with her, now that i am grown and she is my best friend i look back and laugh thinking about us as young children. Sissy is my best friend and the only person who completely understands me. Now that i have rambled on about a whole bunch of random things i feel like i have some what of a clear mind. I love you guys and hope everyone has a GREAT week.

My First Blog..

So today is my first day on this site and it is the first day of the new year.. The year of 2008 was by far the worst year of my life.. as most know my daddy died from lung cancer on March 24th. I am looking for a much better year this year. I am still going through some very tough times but hopefully things will start looking up soon. I never realized how much one person could hurt after going through this. People always say things get easier over time but i still have not come to believe that. My family and I made it through Christmas so i guess we can make it through everything else. I know God will help me through everyday but as a human i can't help but to question him. Although God has blessed me with an amazing family, my mother is my rock, she is who i lean on when i can't stand tall.. my sister is my best friend, she is my backbone, she gives me the best advice i can ask for and is always honest. And then there is this GREAT guy in my life, Tyler is everything i could ever want in a guy, He is the most caring person i know. I love the thought of him being the father of my child one day. And with him come the most loving and welcoming family i have ever been around. I have the most amazing people in my life, but my hero. In closing I hope everyone has a great year. I love you guys!